I'm Your Biggest Fan;; I'll follow you until you love me.

To my dearest and most wonderful 杰 (jié)/不能說的秘密 (secret),

I want you.
You have a nice sincerity about you.
You make me an obsessive, unscrupulous deviant.
You should never underestimate your power over me and forget who you are.
Someday I will say this to your face.
You + me = Are only in my Dreams.
If I saw you now I'd trust it to be a sign.
I want to 不要再想 (bu yao zai xiang/not think again of) you. [Tornado <33]
I would build a world of happiness just for you.
If I could sing you any song it would be The Last Day on Earth.
We could enjoy the silence between us under the stars.

Love,
Cman :)

(P.S. :
I can’t waste time so give it a moment
I realized nothings broken
No need to worry about everything I’ve done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don’t look back got a new direction
I loved you once needed protection
You’re still a part of everything I do
You’re on my heart just like a tattoo
I’ll always have you)

Jordin Sparks' Tattoo :)

Online tarot reading. :P [ifailD:]

Why does love always feel like a battlefield ~

I had dream about telling someone about another dream [an actual one in real life...xD] I had. [really weird. :S] And then it ended up with us spontaneously hugging and then I fell asleep whilst hugging [yes I was that sleepy in my sleep to dream of sleeping :P]. It's the only dream I've remembered in a while. So it deserves a mention? :P In my dream it was a nice hug, too. Ahaha. [lolwut?]

And I can't wait to watch Glee; more harmonised singing. I'm a sucker for harmonies, no idea why. It explains my odd like for duets.

I'm sick of Winter. >:( There's going to be more Swine Flu, so wut if I geetz Swine Flu?! D: jks. I'm guess Sydney might get into wearing masks if the Pandemic gets really bad, but no one wants to hear me rant about my fear of Swine Flu, so I'll stop now. =/

Online Tarot Reading:

The middle left card represents the force drawing you towards the first possible outcome. Five of Cups (Disappointment): Suffering a loss and wishing for what might have been. Being crippled by sadness, grief and vain regret. Ignoring what you still have. May suggest a broken relationship or tragedy. May also suggest a gift, inheritence, oppotunity, partnership or marriage, but one that falls below expectations.

Such a pro reading. :P When I read that it was like...OMG...that's smart? :P And kinda slack. Haha.

Got some music yesterday. Now, Cman is listening to:

Don't Stop Believin' - Glee
Rehab - Glee
The Last Day on Earth - Kate Miller-Heidke
Scarred - Kevin Rudolf
Battlefield - Jordin Sparks
Paparazzi - Lady Gaga
Dong Mai - Fahrenheit
Re Xue Jing Shen - Christine Fan
I Gotta Feeling - BEP

Cman says:
Okay la~ Bye. :)

It's the last day on earth~

Voulez-vous coucher avec moi, ce soir :D

1) Jay Concert [my lover ;D]
2) Being sick [this topic sucks]
3) Charities Day. [yr 10 sucks :(]
4) IPT Exam. DFD?! lulwtf?
5) Fail Speaking much. Argh.
6) HOLIDAY. [BLESS. <3333]

1) Jay Chou's World Tour 'o9. Enjoyed my night immensely. I screamed my ass off. <3 I love Jay Chou. Forever, yeah? ;D I had crapppy seats, but I bought a pink T-shirt. Ben Cao Gan Mu & Huo Yuan Jia rocked the Arena. I loved the dancing and fire special effects. And I saw quite a few people I knew. Like...[in order of appearance] Howell/Jizz and people outside the doors...Kenneth and FB Girl inside [they look exact like FB, scary :P] and Mel, Lizzy and Daisy [maybe other people I forget] after the show. Glad that Bec went because she joined me in my fandom. We took vids and photos. Was vastly enjoyable overall if you forget about how windy and cold it was outside. :P If I were to marry someone double my age, let the consolation be that Jay Chou would be my number 1 candidate.

2) Had a fever on Saturday and Sunday. Didn't break 40 which was a relief. :D Only 39.8. Meant I could stay home on Monday, but mum fed me evil stomach ache herbal medicine and I was feeling terrible all Monday. Did some Jap writing prep. I was really excited about last week of holidays. YAYAYAY.

3) The Jap exam wasn't so bad. It was pretty much as good as I got at Jap. Charities was better than I had expected. The history staff paid extra for a good job which was good because Moorcroft wasn't there to pay us. lololol. Food was a disappointment because there wasn't much variety. All non-filling finger food. Last year was so much better. :D

4) Ahaha. IPT exam. And I keep wondering why I didn't drop IPT at the beginning of this year? I don't even know how to make a DFD for goodness sakes. That's not so bad. There's only 3 month of turmoil left. :P Then I can sit back and movie/game appreciate. IPT IS NEARLY OVER. ;D October 22nd. Here we come. >w<

5) Speaking was a terrible mess. I was speechless for so much of the time. Ms. English is probably the type of person who likes a "trier" and I couldn't even do that. Sad really. I should have called sick. At least that's over now. This is sooo not my week. It's nice that holidays have come. I'm sure this is not something a few movies and good sleep won't cure. I'll go back to school refreshed and excited. Hopefully. :P

6) Annoucement of commencement of the holidays. Let the easy days roll. :D And I'm pretty much finished typing. 'Cept...Hugh Jackman. There. I'm done. Haha. :D

Carmen says bye. :D