Now for my Triumphant Return to the World Wide Web

Thoughtful Reminder of the Day: Cheap thrills require copious amounts of self-control. and subtly. What you imagine in your head is probably a mindf***. LOL xD Either way, they're still lots of fun, but don't get ahead of yourself.

The holidays are here and it's up to me to find a location for the annual 3/4 day trip and Houston, we have a problem. Everywhere is booked out because it's so last minute and I don't know where to go. Alternatively, I really want to hold a huge Christmas Party instead. I'm all for blowing hundreds of dollars into one night for the greatest party of the year. You know, like a HUGE party, all my mates and MINI QUICHES on the menu. : P Only problem is that, I don't have a location, catering, a guest list and probably the hardest to get, permission. One day...I'll vow this party. Maybe in year 12. : ) After youth allowance and a part time job. I'll rent out a beach house for a night and party the night away! [Wishful thinking. ]

NYE is also coming soon. Who's rocking up to the harbour? [VINCENT is. that's who. : ) There's your special mention. ] Any other takers? If there's enough of you guys I'll bring the sparklers : P The end of the year is so liberating. My heart is racing faster that it really should all times of day. I can't get myself to chill out, not one bit D: It's probably not difficult to instigate a heart attack in my right now. It's just that everywhere is so exciting, everyone's going in for the last minute pre-Christmas rush. Billions of dollars are going to be spent in the next week. How mind blowing is that?

Plus, tickets to Wicked for January. I thank my Gege for the tickets : ) He deserves the mention, too. I am grateful for such a generous brother. : DD

Oh, and I sell fruit and soft drinks now. Feel free to drop by. I'll serve you personally and you can test my maths skills. Haha. Central, corner of Eddy Avenue and Elizabeth St. That means through the tunnel on the right from the usual Eddy Avenue exit. This is subliminal....ooooo....come see Carmennnnn~....

Kudos to Zeky who collab-ed with me to get the GHD. Legit & not-a-rock GHD. We hope you enjoy the blasted thing. Hope it makes you feel beautiful everyday. [There's your special mention, Ri : )]

Now for the more recent, Tuesday. Thanks to Matty and Kerry [and helpers : D] who put together a fantasmic day for the group of us. I still can't believe we can last in the race, but you guys should be proud of the achievement you made. Not only was it a smooth run, the people you invited when along with it. Maybe it's just that you make friends with amazing and enthusiastic people. For those who didn't go here is the recap of my team.

Hot Spot 1 M9 - We had heaps of trouble with this place. Couldn't find it. *FAILS* But we completed the challenge with utter style : ) Leo & Amanda lied to us and told us that we were first. : ( For shame. We took 5 pictures of strangers.

Hot Spot 2 Entertainment Centre/Maccas - Didn't know many carols so Benson made one up (Y)

Hot Spot 3 Smiggle/Galaxy World - Matty & Kerry ate my cake YEEEEAH. :D Luke fails at Initial D. : ( Kerry was good. He is a pro dude. (Y)(Y) [Two thumbs up for him xD]

Hot Spot 4 Caps - Got claw in 1 try and ran off.

Hot Spot 5 World Square - Had to find Gordon and then Ali. Daisy joined the team. 'COUNTER TERRORISTS WIN" : )

Hot Spot 6 Events Cinema - Leo & Amada appears again! Took pictures. Totally not worth it.

Hot Spot 7 Hyde Park - Was sweating and dying. : ( Made the point dividing pyramid.

AND THE HOTTEST OF ALL - Last team to arrive, lost by 1 point. >:(

Ate very little and picked up Lauren. People left and we played king. It was fun/ny? Couldn't take Matty seriously and made this awkward face when I talked to him xD

King was over and I got to dunk Matt with his esky. Sorry! D: He was soaked. We were not allowed to dunk Kerry. Haha. When home and I got Kerry Stitch : D YAY. Stitch is v. cool.

Weddy. Went to say goodbye to Celia. We took Caps and presented Elena's GHD after much organisation. I got her a sexy girl card. I should have shopped Gusta and Elena's faces on them LOL.

Friday! Avatar 3D I couldn't go to Bex's birthday. SORRY SORRY SORRY. But I was let off work for 3 hours and I managed to catch Avatar with Bella, Lauren [leo'sonexDDDcoughcoughcough] and Sydney Boys. I let Bella sit next to Matt, so [you get it? xD] I isolated Jono. I'm sorry. I should have let him sit nearer to the boys. We were leaning really far away from each other in completely opposite directions. Like repelling poles of a magnet. People were wearing double glasses and complaining of pain after the 3 hours. i had to pee like 2hrs into the movie and was like "Yeah, it'll finish soon" but it didn't xD Matt bought us Student tickets so he wasted my $2 : ( He is an old person. We (Bella and I) are not. xD

Vincent also went to Hobart this day. He would have been angry if I didn't tell you guys this. : P

This morning I woke up at 5:30 to buy fruit. I missed Du. I then followed to go to Coles and buy Coke. A lot of it. It will probably make me hundreds of dollars after I sell it. (Y) YAYAYAY.

WITH THIS MONEY, I WILL TAKE OVER THE WORLD. I actually mean watch Sherlock Holmes and Iron Man. Robert Downey Jr. (YUM).

BYEBYE LOVEYOULOTS.
c-man

Dreams are strong sublimial messages.

Thoughtful reminder of the day: Differentiate dream from reality. Sometimes weird things happen in dreams which will leave you in extraordinarily awkward situations when you mistake it for reality. HAHAHA. :P

Weepehz. This is the dream I had which you were in. I'm capped until Monday so nets is dodge. MAX dodge : D It wasn't that great, but I thought I should keep note of this one because I forgot what the dream before this one was about. And I like remembering my dreams. :)

Anywhose. We were in a really dodgy room, but I forgot what happened before this in my dream because I woke up for a short time and it disappeared. Suppose we were kidnapped. And you were giving me love advice [I have no idea why. I guess you were playing matchmaker. ] and then you got super angry at me and started hitting me (usual Reapy-like vent. ) and and began to shout at me and forcefully encourage me to "let my clarity define me" [Little Wonders - Rob Thomas (Y) v. cute song btw. :)] to someone and I was like very "...I don't know about this." And you were like "They like you" blah blah blah all this unrealistic encouragement (which made me feel dodgy when I woke up), but I knew I wouldn't follow through even in my dream. Well...not this dream anyways.

This is probably spurred on you being my only supporter, Reapy haha. Thanks for that. xD I'll eventually get over it, even though I thought I already did. Four dreams and counting. Thanks for reading about my problems, haha. Or more so issues that problems. Eat more. :) I will PHEED j00.

BTW, I saw Andrew when I was going home from your house. (Y) Stalker #1... ==;;

loveyouv.much.muchmorethananyoneIcouldhavedreamsabout.
cman

Looking Forward to Working Hard.

Honestly, it's going to be a long month and I want to keep the motivational juices going, so...

Thoughtful Reminder of the Day: Always remember that we'll always support each other through thick and thin especially during these stressful weeks and keep motivated by finding some sort of inspiration or reason to work your hardest. If all else fails, work on a punishment system. [RECOMMENDED. LOL. ]

Tonight I think I finally dropped out of my holiday daze [a bit late in the night, init...?] but it's a start and I'm promising myself to work hard this coming test period, even if it works me to the limit. You guys are all amazing and I know, a few exams won't trouble you if you get into the flow of it. You just need to find the driving force within yourself to do what needs to be done.

WORK YOUR HARDEST AND I KNOW YOU'LL ALL ACE YOUR EXAMS, INDEFINITELY.

find what or who gives you motivation. it definitely helps. love you guys a lot.
c-man.

You sound so sad Reap. Here have a:

Cha Siu Bao~ I had three, but I eated 2. I left the last one for yoo~ You can share it with a little someone special. *Hair twirl* iduuunoo~

loveyoumissyoucomebackROOM. carps.

This one's for the pretty lady on my left. ;D

This one's for [my v. sexy girlfriend] Weepy.
Yesterday I went to Stratty to go to the accountant and while we [mum & I] were in the elevator, the lady in front of me smelt like Gummi Bears. : D Like actually like gummi bears and I wondered if it was just me because when she left, the gummi bear scent went away. Anywhose. We got to the top floor and then the accountant place was v. messy and I was proud to say that I found a place of equal disorganisation to my own room. : ) I didn't eat yet so we left and I got to eat the REALLY good pizza that I dreamt of once after eating it. :P I got chicken this time, the base was harder than I had remembered it so I enjoyed it less, but it was good nevertheless. Of course I got Easy Way (Y) to go with my pizzza. 8 points.

While eating, some people in Curious George costumes came along and the person in the monkey costume was hopping around and it was v. cute. :3 I took their picture later. The George monkey wanted a Bananarama. Haha. Very asian.



We left Stratty and by passed Lakemba to buy tissues because we're running out and also get some TVB stuff to watch. Got King of Snooker and getting DIE later. : D Finished watching Snooker thing already. Cheng Siu Chao is sexy. LOLOLOL [wutareyoulaughingat. wait...it'smethat'slaughing. creepyreversepaedophiling. uhhnvm] Woah. I just googled the word for reverse paedo-ing = gerontophile. I have...problems. let's change the topic.

Derek Kwok [Ri & Me: GREEN EYEBROWS!] is in this show too and as usual, he plays the cool guy that everyone loves which is pretty much his image. He's like 45. D'you know that? IRSOCREEPY.

Then so dinner. Went to Hurstville that Sunny Harbour or something to eat with my mum's ex-boss. I was full after first "choi". Probs just period bloating T___T So I couldn't fully enjoy to the awesomeness of the following food. RI RI RI, guess who sat on the table next to me! Coincidence max. :) The extremely beautiful [though not as much so as you, luo leng lui] Stephanie Zhu. We have "yuen fun". And Cecily was there, too. Kneehuz. Left without saying hi to them. Rest of the night went home and watched Cheng Siu Chao.

I did think about you yesterday Reapy. Love you, 2 days to go.

C-man

Blog for Honey. You want Grimmjow's sexy arse.

You asked for it, beb. Here's the blog, just for you. And I posted images of you cuz I know you'd like that. With all that groping...and posing and yeah. I don't mean to be disappointing, but nothing interesting did happen today, but I've got to say that I'm loving the weather. The temperature's excellent around here (Y)

Love, C-man

Finally got my stuff for Formal : D (Y)

Well I went to Myer yesterday before leaving Hurstville and got a dress and clutch. Yay. : ) So this morning I got dressed in all my garb and did my eye make up. LOLOLOL. I fail. I finally realised where eyeliner actually goes...hahaha. I was like. OMGGG. And then now it seems so simple. xD Workload's a little crazy atm, so I have to skip off and do that gosh damned work. :( PD. Listening to Namidairo by Yui. Love, Yui. Can't wait until next weekend where all assessments are over, minus PE, but PE's k. All I do is stretches. And I was feeling really mean that day and thus, they're all super hard. Sorry people in my class! :P Good luck the rest of you guys with your work whoever reads this. :)

Lotsalove.
C-man.

Quiz ;D

I started this yesterday, Here it is naoz.

2nd Post. WOW :D

Ideals of Carmen's perfect lover :) [No numbers means there is no priority over qualities (Y) SCRAM FTW]
I used someone as a reference to this. Good thing that the person I am describing will never see this : D Or they'd just be really scared of me forever and ever and ever. [If for some REALLY creepy reason they do. DNW, the good news for you is that I don't like you in that way. YAY (?) Just hope to stumble by someone who is like this and I like them. The following list disregards the usual obvious things e.g. Good hygiene/smell, etc.

• Athletic. :) And actually super pro at a sexy sport :D E.g. Tennis [how is tennis sexy you ask? I don't know, but it is, right? xD Volleyball? o.O DNO. ]
  
• Intelligent
• Abs of steel. LOLOL xD [I bet Ri just realised who I was describing. xDD] - not like "ripped" <-- Ew, but with ab, like? Uhh...Like slim, but muscular? Umm. LOLOL. Like high jumpers, tennis players kind of muscly? xD D'you know what, let's skip to the next point
• Ext. 2 Maths is sexy. Mmm.
  
• Cold. As in the temperature. Yeah, I need someone who is physically less warm than me. [Elena get why this, too. ] xDD
• Can lift me up without even flinching. Me = REALLY HEAVY. Therefore, this isn't that easy, really. And this probably also means biceps :D
• Someone who remembers stupid things I do or say and will tease me about them in the future
• Has a major character flaw [Yes, I find this attractive...xD] It makes me feel like this person needs me...? Or something totally dodgy like that. I help them get over their character flaw.
  
• Focused and ambitious...not so much it takes over their life, but enough so that they know what they want [aka the opposite of me :D This will help me grow as an individual. ]
• I will figure out more in the future : D

Come little children. When you have the time and you are totally bothered, so the same : D

Cman

iTunes Magic. [and a long post so Elena don't need to keep seeing her own face every time. ] :P

When you walked through the door

It was clear to me (clear to me)

You’re the one they adore, who they came to see (who they came to see)

You’re a … rockstar (baby)

Everybody wants you (everybody wants you)

Player…Who can really blame you (who can really blame you)

We're the ones who made you

How wonderful life is now you're in the world

Jealousy...wil drive you...MAD

This is ten percent luck, twenty percent skill

Fifteen percent concentrated power of will

Five percent pleasure, fifty percent pain

And a hundred percent reason to remember the name!

Where'd you go?

I miss you so,

Seems like it's been forever,

That you've been gone,

Please come back home...

Everyone knows I'm in over my head

I wish you were a stranger I could disengage

Does it matter to know that we’ll never be, we’ll never be, we’ll never be?

We could pretend that we are friends tonight

And in the morning we'll wake up and we'll be alright

Don’t look back got a new direction

It's the end of the world

And you've come back to me

In my dreams

And you hold me closer than I can ever remember being held

I'm not afraid to sleep now, if we can stay like this until

In my head I repeat our conversations

Over and over til they feel like hallucinations

You know me - I love to lose my mind

And every time anybody speaks your name I still feel the same

I ache, I ache, I ache inside

I like you better when you're not around

'Cause I feel

The distance

Between us

Could be over

With the snap of your finger

But I cashed in something long ago,

That I can't redeem.

But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell

I'm talking to myself in public

Dodging glances on the train

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place

Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace

Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste

あなたがいないとイヤイヤって言えるわがまま

It'd be selfish of me to say I didn't want you to go.

(ずっと消えないように消さないように)

(I don't want you to go away, I won't get rid of you)

愛情、友情、知りたいことは何でも。

Love or friendship, I just want to know.

(曖昧すぎてわからないよ。)

(It's so vague, I just don't get it)

いつか心の奥のドアを叩くあなたを待っている

the door to my heart is waiting for you to knock it down.

何年たってもいつになってもやめないで

No matter how many years it takes,

Don't give up

But she wears short skirts, I wear T-shirts

She's Cheer Captain and I'm on the bleachers

Why are you striving these days

Why are you trying to earn grace

Why are you crying

Let me lift up your face

And I'll be by your side

Wherever you fall

And please don't fight

These hands that are holding you

Gee Gee Gee Gee Baby Baby Baby

是好是壞問方文山最清楚

Whether it's good or bad, Vincent Fang knows it best

妳/你的一切都想要

I want every bit of you

这样的节奏 谁都无可奈何

This kind of rhythm would leave anyone helpless

没有你以后 我灵魂失控

Without you, my soul goes out of control

我不 我不 我不要再想你~~

I don't, I don't, I don't want to think of you anymore

牛仔很忙的

The cowboy is very busy

也許時間是一種解藥

Maybe time is an antidote

也是我現在正服下的毒藥

Or the poison I'm taking right now

看不見你的笑 我怎麼睡得著

Without seeing your smile, how can I sleep?

你的聲音這麼近我卻抱不到

Your voice is so close yet I cannot hug you

沒有地球太陽還是會繞

The sun will continue orbiting even without the Earth existing

沒有理由我也能自己走

I can walk away from you without a reason

蓬頭隨著音樂節奏擺動

Swing my windswept, messy head to the rhythm of the music

要讓這個Party擁有意義非凡的感動

Wanna let this party move you in an extraordinary way

夏天的風 吹得我們全身放鬆

The summer wind blows, making our bodies relax and let loose

Unscrupulous. Just as I expected.

Thoughtful Reminder of the Day: Practice what you preach. A.K.A. If you talk it, walk it out.

I realised that I'm not what I thought I was/am today. I didn't do what my reminder says, so, I need to remind all you lovely people to not do something that seems like a good idea at the time, but is in fact definitely and absopositively something you will regret doing later, then wonder why you did it in the first place. Now for me, there are 2 explicitly apparent reasons that make be concluded. First, it would have been blind curiousity. Commit a few wrongs instead of the right and see where that would go for me. The second, I'm getting rabies from a bite I got from a very mysterious Green Eyed Monster. [As much as I try to not admit it. ] Or third, though not so obvious, may be that I was drunk dialing. I wasn't completely in the right mind when it happened. Perhaps a little intoxicated. Conciousness swirlling into a minestrone mess in my mind. Either way, I guess it was inexcusable.

I could now apologise straight away and be insecurely honest, but it definitely isn't the right moment to that. This will definitely not quell my issue or anyone else's in fact. It would get surprisingly complicated. There would be so many questions and no courage to answer them and it is definitely not under this situation that I would like to answer those questions. An apology is all I could offer.

Sorry. I'm sorry I can't explain. I'm sorry that this even happened. When I finally become less cowardly, it will be time to own up. When I watch dramas I wonder why people don't just tell the truth and let nature take its course, well, now I know. It's because nature is complicated and sometimes [well almost all the time for me. ] I get scared of what I don't know and I was always right to be scared. [Apparently. ]

Guys, you're not me. You don't be too late and miss the risky oppotunity that would have been the right one to take and make the wrong choices. Will be working towards a mental resolution. Wish me luck. [More than when you guys wish me pre-Westpac. ]

Cman

I edited Weep again. I get creepier with time D:

LOOK, I edited Reap's picture. [she will hurt me when she sees this. :P]

"In my head I repeat our conversations
Over and over til they feel like hallucinations
You know me - I love to lose my mind
And every time anybody speaks your name
I still feel the same
I ache, I ache, I ache inside"


"Now, I'm looking for the secret
But I won't find it.
Because I'm not-really-looking.
I really don't want to know the secret.
I want to be FOOLED. "


Maybe I want to be happy.
But I'm not really?
Now genuine am I?

Concussion. LOLOLOL :P

Thoughtful Reminder of the Day: Avoid activities which promote concussions. [it sounded more thoughtful in my head..actually, no it didn't]

DNW my beautiful people. I am not planning to get concussed any time soon. If it does happen, it will be purely accidental. I was just thinking about concussion inducing activities D:

Uhh...Yesterday? Good day. A lot of positivity driving me now. D'you know what? I am actually happy, that or I'm just confused at the concept of happy. o.O Makes me smile at the very least. Think it calms me to know they didn't get away and it's not for me to direct. I feel like...? I guess, I have a change of direction to what I want. The faster they get over the koi, I'll get over it and the happpier they are, the happier I am. At first I thought maybe I wouldn't "be down with it" [lol, gangster?]/may kill me [dnw, not suicidal...lolol], but that's also part of the relief. I'm fine :)

"Please cut the chase and get to the point. No one likes playing the waiting game. "

Never Forget Everyone :)

Thoughtful reminder of the day: If you truly love someone, you will be happy when they are :)

Quick summary of yesterday. I slept really early the day before, so I woke up at 4:30-ish [earlier than today :D]. Surf the net [and read all your blogs about the weekend. Dad had day off so he kind of kicked me out of the house at like 7:18...? Got to school and 1st period was EH. Wasn't in the mood for work, but I did do it. :) 2nd was IPT. Boring. Edited Ash. LOLOLOL :P Recess we had chatty chats. Read other's blogs to discover content of talks. 3rd was Maths ;D I actually did work, for the first time of the term. :) Started stats. [2 topics behind "good" classes D:] We definitely need Mr. [awesome] Greengard back. We were like 1 topic ahead of everybody last year...:( Ahhh....then came lunch. I actually ate a lot today =/ Got more sauce for Fish Roll thing cuz it was PHAIL .3. More chatting. See other's blog again for content.

Begugu had a squishy tennis raquet for...how'd you guess, tennis. :P I had a lot of fun at tennis today. The instructor guy was funny :) Played fail community. [First one out :D?] Went to station and found out that Luke was taking NSB exam. Like woah? o.o Then waited for Btown. :) Took to Lidcombe and then Sydenham. YAY. Took it with Luke and WEEP :)

Went home; watched TV; and then slept until...one and a half hours ago :)

So, remember :) Keep smiling. And be happy for your loved ones sweeties :)

Cman

I'm Your Biggest Fan;; I'll follow you until you love me.

To my dearest and most wonderful 杰 (jié)/不能說的秘密 (secret),

I want you.
You have a nice sincerity about you.
You make me an obsessive, unscrupulous deviant.
You should never underestimate your power over me and forget who you are.
Someday I will say this to your face.
You + me = Are only in my Dreams.
If I saw you now I'd trust it to be a sign.
I want to 不要再想 (bu yao zai xiang/not think again of) you. [Tornado <33]
I would build a world of happiness just for you.
If I could sing you any song it would be The Last Day on Earth.
We could enjoy the silence between us under the stars.

Love,
Cman :)

(P.S. :
I can’t waste time so give it a moment
I realized nothings broken
No need to worry about everything I’ve done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don’t look back got a new direction
I loved you once needed protection
You’re still a part of everything I do
You’re on my heart just like a tattoo
I’ll always have you)

Jordin Sparks' Tattoo :)

Online tarot reading. :P [ifailD:]

Why does love always feel like a battlefield ~

I had dream about telling someone about another dream [an actual one in real life...xD] I had. [really weird. :S] And then it ended up with us spontaneously hugging and then I fell asleep whilst hugging [yes I was that sleepy in my sleep to dream of sleeping :P]. It's the only dream I've remembered in a while. So it deserves a mention? :P In my dream it was a nice hug, too. Ahaha. [lolwut?]

And I can't wait to watch Glee; more harmonised singing. I'm a sucker for harmonies, no idea why. It explains my odd like for duets.

I'm sick of Winter. >:( There's going to be more Swine Flu, so wut if I geetz Swine Flu?! D: jks. I'm guess Sydney might get into wearing masks if the Pandemic gets really bad, but no one wants to hear me rant about my fear of Swine Flu, so I'll stop now. =/

Online Tarot Reading:

The middle left card represents the force drawing you towards the first possible outcome. Five of Cups (Disappointment): Suffering a loss and wishing for what might have been. Being crippled by sadness, grief and vain regret. Ignoring what you still have. May suggest a broken relationship or tragedy. May also suggest a gift, inheritence, oppotunity, partnership or marriage, but one that falls below expectations.

Such a pro reading. :P When I read that it was like...OMG...that's smart? :P And kinda slack. Haha.

Got some music yesterday. Now, Cman is listening to:

Don't Stop Believin' - Glee
Rehab - Glee
The Last Day on Earth - Kate Miller-Heidke
Scarred - Kevin Rudolf
Battlefield - Jordin Sparks
Paparazzi - Lady Gaga
Dong Mai - Fahrenheit
Re Xue Jing Shen - Christine Fan
I Gotta Feeling - BEP

Cman says:
Okay la~ Bye. :)

It's the last day on earth~