19th [supply && demand. ] this is unupdated, naoz. LOL

Sick today.
I regret it.
Wish I was around.
I've missed too much.
It kills me.

You didn't get me out of bed this morning.
My will has become WEAK.
Weak is helpless.
Selfless, but helpless.

Say, "Life is good."
That's what it is nowadays.
Fighting too many battles.
Juggling too many plates.
They're falling.
Teach me to juggle.
You make it look so easy. :)
It makes me smile.

I'm the needy type.
I like to be praised.
To know affection.
I always refuse to admit it.
I can't deny it any more.
No one's going to buy it.
They see me and I am weak.

Nice.
Is what I am.
Is all I am.
Is all I want.
Is all I want to be.
What's stopping me?
Save me from loathing.
Hate is pitiful and small.
Say, "I hate nothing."
It's killing me.

You know I love you.
I want to say stop it.
"Please".
Shout it perhaps.
Then again I want you to break me.
Push me further that I've ever been.

I get it.
I'm supposed to talk.
Chime.
Carry on the conversation.
But your connection makes me feel so small.
Underserving and weak.
Like I shouldn't intrude.
You'd tell me that I'm being silly.
That it's easy.
But it's the hardest thing in the world for me.
Teach me how to do it right.
You do it so well.

Not that's out. I'm feeling much better. Old school Community channel. (Y)